Finding a pulse2001-01-05 - 19:39:23Well, here I am already adding another entry. I suppose that's the benefit of having this where I can get to it. To ramble on whenever I find it's appropriate. Or not. I suppose it's really not appropriate since I should be working. But I wanted to record this for posterity's sake. I have made a new year's resolution this year. Something I vowed I wouldn't do for a long while. I've resolved to notice people. To be aware of the world. I hadn't realized how easy it is just to disappear into a book on the train or stare at your feet as you shuffle down the sidewalk or come home and wait for the phone to ring instead of picking it up first. I've resolved to stop letting the world just happen to me. I'm going to happen to it. And when realization or just a person with a smile and a nod for me passes by, dammit, I'm going to notice and acknowledge it. I haven't been in the big city that long. And it's not so cold that I've forgotten what it's like to be human. I mean how do you know you're alive if you don't stop to hear the world breathe? I suppose you don't. Not really. And I'm tired of not really. |